YOU FOUND MY SECRET LOVE PAGE!
I felt like this page needed an update. Because lets face it, they deserve it.
Aisling is my life and soul and everything in between. And more, if you can get more than life and soul. I genuinely could not live without her because it would be like living without a part of me. The best part of our relationship is that it’s so flexible and brilliant. No matter what’s going on I can have a good time with her. We can be serious and have these really deep conversations, or we can be total prats where we do things like run down hills acting like we’re riding horses. Either way, as long as I’m with her it’ll be the perfect way to spend the day. And I haven’t even mentioned how in sync we are. Man, we can just look at each other and know what the other’s thinking. In fact, we don’t even need to look at each other. We can tell from just standing next to each other. She’s the most beautiful girl I’ve ever known and she never believes me when I say it, but it’s the honest truth. She’s perfection, I can’t even begin to explain how much I wish I was like her. She’s the loveliest person alive, too. She’s hilarious, kind, clever and talented and the only thing I would consider changing is her mindset because she needs to realise it as much as I do. I constantly question why she’s chosen me as a best friend because she could have an equally perfect friend instead, but it makes me ecstatic to know she chooses me over them because I’d be heartbroken if she didn’t need me. She’s the only person I could easily tell everything to, without a doubt in my mind. I trust her with my life and I know she trusts me too, which makes me so happy. I just can’t believe I can mean as much to her as she does to me, and it’s a wonderful feeling to know I’m appreciated as much as she is. She deserves nothing less than perfection and I know I’ve not always given her the treatment she deserves but I know I’ll always love her and care for her throughout. I’ll care when she doesn’t even need me anymore. I can’t imagine my life without this girl, she’s everything I need forever and ever. It kills me when I’m away from her even just over the weekend. I just feel like I’m not completely there without her. We were just meant to be together. Probably as sisters but I guess something just went wrong along the way.
Oh and by the way, Aisling, if you see this. WE’RE NOT RELATED!
Junan. Right, well I’ve certainly known him for less time than Aisling but he’s still my world and that is a damn achievement. It usually takes me a very long time to be comfortable around people and to let them get my trust but with him it took no less than a day. He’s such a charmer, he says the loveliest things to me and can make me happy in an instant. That said, he could make me feel the worst in a second if he wanted to. He has so much control over me, I’d do anything for him without a doubt. I don’t see him anywhere near as much as I wish I could but I somehow manage to cope, even though it hurts like hell to be away from him for so long. I talk to him every day and I feel wrong when I don’t for any reason. He’s worked his way into my normal routine and if he somehow isn’t there then I feel like shit for the whole day. I’d be lost without him, honestly. I could rant for hours about how much he means but I think the best thing about him is that he believes in me so much - more than he believe in himself - and he’s pretty much the only confidence I have. Like, without him no confidence would exist in the slightest. He was the first and only person to make me feel like I was important or worth something. He’s changed me, and there is no doubt in my mind that it was for the better. He just makes me feel like anything is possible and I really need that from someone. He gives me so much support. He’s just perfect. He’s the most beautiful guy I know, he’s the only guy I need in my life to be honest. He’s the funniest, kindest, cleverest boy. He’s top of everyone. He’s my everything. I don’t know how he finds the strength to keep up with me and put up with my constant mood swings etc. but I’m glad he does it. And he doesn’t make it seem like a burden either. He makes me feel interesting, like there is a reason to talk to me and he makes me feel appreciated in the smallest but most important ways. That makes me feel special. He’s sometimes the only person who can make me better. I have so much faith in him, I truly believe he could do anything he wants. I hope he does anything he wants, and I’ll be there right behind him with lots of support like he’s always been for me. I’m completely in love with him and I’ll never be able to stop caring about him, ever. I’ll always be waiting for him. And I think I’m okay with that, I’m totally devoted to him but I don’t mind because I know I’ll never meet anyone like him.
Junan, if you see this then just know I don’t plan on leaving. Ever. Sorry about that.